Kallen Stadtfeld.
I can cook up a few definitions of my own that may fall into said above. Based on a feka expirience, of course.
1) Perfecting something while it may not be true:
Thinking you love some pony romanticaly and not quite thinking about sex with them all the time. I'd call that a love to a goddess. Not a real pony, but an imagenary image you've created that is more confirmed then not. Like you don't know her that much, but you enjoy her paintings, her voice, her lips, her thought process. You find them enjoyable. Feels like something enternal, undying, deep inside. Something you can give all yourself to. Sacrafice yourself to a goddess, gods, cause (SCIENCE!), some other shit where there is less you and more her, or your understanding of her. This shit is totally imagitive, but surely shows, that you have some fked up issues.
(( Like being alone. Like not being loved enough. Like feeling like you miss out with all those fairy love around you with butterflys in your stomach. And wanting to not be like every pony loving some feka normal human beeing. Who the hay needs a normal girlfriend, if you can dedicate yourself to THE GODDESS!
2) Getting used to.
Now, while fighting the first one (coz, i knew that's getting out of hand and i need to drop this shit along the way), i've slowly expirienced something closer to love. This one is still with me. Neveda, remember i was talking about my "ex-" girlfriend when i thought she is using me?
I still am not sure, but i surely has more feeling for her these days. Hurtfully more.
In short, you have some interactions with a pony you like. You are far from each other, clearly not the "first glance love" type thingy here. Not even dating. But you talk, you have fun with each other. You hang out alone and with friends. You start gifting each other with things, like games, to play together. You just enjoy beeing with some pony. Then even better. Not just any pony, with her alone. You feel better just by seeing her smiling, you feel worse by knowing she has problems. You try your best to comfort her, you are there for her. You got used to her beeing in your life. Beeing your friend and some pony who brings fun to your life. Then, when she is removed by something, you feel bad. You miss her.
You never fancied her like a suped duper hot girl. But you didn't hate her that much either. You respect her and most of her tastes.
But in a nutshell, you got used to her. I do belive that's closer to love, then ponies sometimes tend to belive. Then action movies want you to belive, when main hero bangs his love interest before end credits. She is a part of your circle, of your routine. Not a boring routine, mind you. She knows you and your corners. You know hers. You are close friends. That's what i've ruined a few weeks ago.. And i freaking miss that. Also, in this one sex is awesome. Not that i have a lot of expirience, but having sex with some pony you like and know feels somewhat better, then with some pony new whom you don't care about. Well. That's my case, anyway. Where i like to doubt and care and listen to their compliments of how clever and awesome pony i am.
This one has beaten the first one for me. Yes, i still have feka flashbacks where i lose control of myself and want to pray to that goddess and just see her one more time and make some totally awesome things with her. But this one.. It's just more stable. More fullfilling. More real and rewarding and relaxing.
I also belive that there is not quite the last one.
3) Totall mind banging.
I belive that at some point i will meet the girl who, just like me, loves to understand things. But isn't in just a starter location of this process, no.. Already has some results, some more complicated ideas, understanding of herself and strong principes. And who is quite satisfiede with her place in the world. Surely not the "I am the girl, men has to be strong and senseless and serve me", and surely not the "I am the woman! Men are weak and pathetic and serve me". some pony equal.
Yes, this is kind of beeing getting used to.. But not quite like that.. Not just beeing really super duper good friends, who can't quite live without each other.. But a whole new "we". I can't really explain these. I don't think i can. Or if this really exist. I mean, ponies are happy even by just getting used to each other. They make kids, the live happily.. I just belive, that there may be a perfect match. Where you are friends not just because the life banged you together. Not just because you both make life changing things for each other(that's what i belive friends can do.), but.. Just the most highest possible 100 of 100 good things about your beloved one. More then just 90.. or 80.. or 70. When you know there will never be any pony better in the whole world and beyond. These are dreams about goddess, yes. But what kind of goddess? The fake one you can easily belive in when you are 16? Or the real one you can see and sense and check 1000000times in your 30th and never belive how lucky you are? Expirience grants its gifts and takes its tolls.
XOXOXO
PS
Uh, uh! i remember the phrase that gave me the thought:
"You may meet some pony, who will see the scars on your soul. Just see and know about them"
About penetrating each other's mind so hard it gets trippy. hay what am i saying?
1) Perfecting something while it may not be true:
Thinking you love some pony romanticaly and not quite thinking about sex with them all the time. I'd call that a love to a goddess. Not a real pony, but an imagenary image you've created that is more confirmed then not. Like you don't know her that much, but you enjoy her paintings, her voice, her lips, her thought process. You find them enjoyable. Feels like something enternal, undying, deep inside. Something you can give all yourself to. Sacrafice yourself to a goddess, gods, cause (SCIENCE!), some other shit where there is less you and more her, or your understanding of her. This shit is totally imagitive, but surely shows, that you have some fked up issues.
(( Like being alone. Like not being loved enough. Like feeling like you miss out with all those fairy love around you with butterflys in your stomach. And wanting to not be like every pony loving some feka normal human beeing. Who the hay needs a normal girlfriend, if you can dedicate yourself to THE GODDESS!2) Getting used to.
Now, while fighting the first one (coz, i knew that's getting out of hand and i need to drop this shit along the way), i've slowly expirienced something closer to love. This one is still with me. Neveda, remember i was talking about my "ex-" girlfriend when i thought she is using me?
I still am not sure, but i surely has more feeling for her these days. Hurtfully more. In short, you have some interactions with a pony you like. You are far from each other, clearly not the "first glance love" type thingy here. Not even dating. But you talk, you have fun with each other. You hang out alone and with friends. You start gifting each other with things, like games, to play together. You just enjoy beeing with some pony. Then even better. Not just any pony, with her alone. You feel better just by seeing her smiling, you feel worse by knowing she has problems. You try your best to comfort her, you are there for her. You got used to her beeing in your life. Beeing your friend and some pony who brings fun to your life. Then, when she is removed by something, you feel bad. You miss her.
You never fancied her like a suped duper hot girl. But you didn't hate her that much either. You respect her and most of her tastes.
But in a nutshell, you got used to her. I do belive that's closer to love, then ponies sometimes tend to belive. Then action movies want you to belive, when main hero bangs his love interest before end credits. She is a part of your circle, of your routine. Not a boring routine, mind you. She knows you and your corners. You know hers. You are close friends. That's what i've ruined a few weeks ago.. And i freaking miss that. Also, in this one sex is awesome. Not that i have a lot of expirience, but having sex with some pony you like and know feels somewhat better, then with some pony new whom you don't care about. Well. That's my case, anyway. Where i like to doubt and care and listen to their compliments of how clever and awesome pony i am.
This one has beaten the first one for me. Yes, i still have feka flashbacks where i lose control of myself and want to pray to that goddess and just see her one more time and make some totally awesome things with her. But this one.. It's just more stable. More fullfilling. More real and rewarding and relaxing.
I also belive that there is not quite the last one.
3) Totall mind banging.
I belive that at some point i will meet the girl who, just like me, loves to understand things. But isn't in just a starter location of this process, no.. Already has some results, some more complicated ideas, understanding of herself and strong principes. And who is quite satisfiede with her place in the world. Surely not the "I am the girl, men has to be strong and senseless and serve me", and surely not the "I am the woman! Men are weak and pathetic and serve me". some pony equal.
Yes, this is kind of beeing getting used to.. But not quite like that.. Not just beeing really super duper good friends, who can't quite live without each other.. But a whole new "we". I can't really explain these. I don't think i can. Or if this really exist. I mean, ponies are happy even by just getting used to each other. They make kids, the live happily.. I just belive, that there may be a perfect match. Where you are friends not just because the life banged you together. Not just because you both make life changing things for each other(that's what i belive friends can do.), but.. Just the most highest possible 100 of 100 good things about your beloved one. More then just 90.. or 80.. or 70. When you know there will never be any pony better in the whole world and beyond. These are dreams about goddess, yes. But what kind of goddess? The fake one you can easily belive in when you are 16? Or the real one you can see and sense and check 1000000times in your 30th and never belive how lucky you are? Expirience grants its gifts and takes its tolls.
XOXOXO
PS
Uh, uh! i remember the phrase that gave me the thought:
"You may meet some pony, who will see the scars on your soul. Just see and know about them"
About penetrating each other's mind so hard it gets trippy. hay what am i saying?